“No, I cannot help you, I am not available then,” but in my
mind I am saying, I will not do that
again. You stepped upon me once before and left me injured there. I will not be
in that place again, although you say you care.
Assertiveness is a skill that I am learning how to use. It
gives my heart protection and keeps me from being used. It means that I will
say how I feel at the time the event takes place rather than waiting and trying
to please, or rather than saving face.
“Do you have a minute? We need to talk,” I said to my
colleague and friend. “Just a moment, I’ll be right there,” she said as she
rounded the bend. We went into a private room and there discussed the scene
that had unfolded just moments before leaving me embarrassed, it seemed.
“You say I did this thing to you, you may feel rightly so,” but in my mind I am saying, your choices you made, you know. I cannot take the credit for making you what you are. The things that you have done before are bringing you this far.
I will stand and hold
my ground; I am just as important as you. I need to not cower or run and hide,
to myself, I will be true. For I am strong, and I am free, to choose how I want
to live. And God, He will be with me. For me, new life He did give.
